Induce Labor Not So Naturally

I am thirty nine weeks pregnant today!

I went to the Dr yesterday and I was thiiiiiiis close to being dilated to a four.

Remember that I am 100% effaced.

Being dilated to a 4 and 100% effaced in considered active labor.

The Dr told me if I had been having contractions he would have sent me right over to the hospital.

Instead, we will be breaking my water.  

I'm gonna have a baby and I'm gonna have her soon!

So grateful we live around family who will be watching my two year old and my house and Davin and I.

We need all the help we can get!

This is me at exactly 39 weeks pregnant with Ava:

We were on the way out the door at 6 a.m. to be induced.

This is me at exactly 39 weeks pregnant with new baby:

Sorry about the crap picture.  Davin isn't home to take one for me and my camera is all packed in my hospital bag and I don't dare unpack it!

Things I'm insanely nervous about:

Breastfeeding.  I wasn't able to with Ava and it was exhausting and heartbreaking for me.

I plan to try again this time, but I wont blame myself or listen to all the judgmental comments this time if it doesn't work out.

Colic.  Ava was a colicy baby.  They say colic is when a baby cries at least 3 hours a day, 3 times a week.  

Ava cried 5-7 hours a day 7 days a week.  It was hard.  It was really, really, really hard.

Sleep.  Very recently Ava quit sleeping through the night.  Between two kids not sleeping at night I have the feeling I am going to be beside myself with tired.

Things I'm super excited about:

When they put that new, slimy baby on your chest.  Oh my, I love that moment.  It makes the nine months of  hell so, so worth it.

Snuggling.

Baby stretches, baby squeaks and sleepy baby smiles.

Getting to know this baby the way we've gotten to know Ava.  I love being Ava's Mom and I can't wait to have two to love.